Laura Tansley

Foreword

Away from home I feel braver, so I indulge him when he asks did my brother and I fight a lot as children. He has a handsome Italian accent and a smooth beard. His satchel is heavy with copies of a free magazine, it looks as if it would split him in two like a block of wood. I won’t take a copy though, I have enough to carry.
+++++“As much as everyone else, I guess.”
+++++“Me too,” he says, “he broke my nose also. See without that,” he touches the bridge of my nose even though I recoil, “you would be an eight out of ten. Your friend there,” he points, “she is a six”.
+++++Amy smiles, she knows it’s a game but I am defensive.
+++++“My nose has always been this way; I was born with it this way.”
+++++Later, in a different bar, a woman with wonderfully tight curls tells me what an ‘interesting’ nose I have. I laugh incredulously and tell her everyone knows that interesting is another word for difficult. Perhaps it was an advance. Nothing easy is ever worth it, after all.
+++++In bed I thought how in just one short evening I have been forced to reconsider my nose, how it has never been a part of me that I have been particularly conscious of. But perhaps instead of worrying about my pale skin and my Elizabethan forehead, I should have been considering my nose, because people have been considering it for me. Aren’t you considering it now?

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Drawn to drizzle, Laura Tansley has consistently picked damp places to live, including Glasgow where she is currently living and studying for a PhD in Creative Writing.